Kids at Heart

I met lots of kids today. The youngest one was 22. Its strange, how we grow and claim to have matured, but deep somewhere we always are kids. Wanting things our way. I think most people who give up on what they like, do it either of peer pressure, or probably thinking that, fighting for an ice-cream is not something grown ups do. Well if I fight for an ice-cream or a game, rationally in the grown up fashion, I can explain it as arguing against something you don't find right. Some one might comment, that you don't fight for petty things. But I say who decides what's petty and what's not. Well I have a different outlook to things, most things that people find really important hardly matter to me. To me something is important if its close to my heart, however stupid it may seem to the rest of the world. I don't think I do anything wrong if I fight for something as small as a point in a game played in the garden outside. I compromise on lot other things, things that are important to the rest of the world, so why cant I have some petty things my way????

Hold On

I thought, it was never meant to be,
That you will never matter to me.
I could never run to you,
Wheather the days were bright or blue.
But you taught me the ways of life,
You taught me how to fight to survive.
You may think, I have left, I have gone.
But look around to see, I am still holding on.

Life is all about

Million dolor baby, a story about passion for one thing in life. The story says a lot. I just watched it yesterday and I think, it deserves al the Oscar nominations and awards it won. You sacrifice almost anything to get that one thing you want in life, and very truly said in the movie, many people die saying they did not have their chance. Its quite and inspiration. Reminds me of a lot of things daddy always said, my belief of,” when you want something, want it so bad that you get it” , just got stronger.

The first step I take

I heard from the company today, they said they found someone more capable. This is quite possible, at 22 I do not have much experience with industry, just working as a student. There are various ways I can look at this, but I am not sure of which way it should be. Considering other things in life as of now is guess, not getting this job was good, coz I have some more time as a student, can give my research a good finish, learn a few more thing, improve my skills and above all probably find a better job. Well some people may say I am consoling myself, and that’s the way cowards do. But I am not a coward. I have learnt to fight. I often wonder is it wrong to have a positive attitude and accept that whatever happens happens for good, try and look at the brighter side of life. My usual approaches to a failure is trying and analyze the situation, look at the future and past of it and every thing that possibly can be linked to it and work again for the next best opportunity. This time I do the same, but some might think, that’s the best I can do and say the grapes were sour. But I want to tell them I cannot cry over spilled milk, I want to keep moving, and that’s the way I have learnt to live.

thoughts

Life is so confusing, there is a fight with my own self, I don’t know what I am looking for, or may be I know, just not sure. Everything as n when its suits me I want it that way, else it’s not good, it’s disturbing. When I think of it I find my self guilty of my own, and wipe it out all alone, crying again to see I am doing it alone.